sumin's room

Hey handsome, Okay this blog post is fueled by a watermelon red bull and some bumpin' house and hyper pop music.  I've been thinking about the elements that make up who I am. For example, being non binary. Sometimes that shit is so taxing dude. Like I 100% understand people that change their pronouns back. Because sometimes, it feels like you can never win. When I'm in a negative space, I feel like I don't fit in anywhere. That I'm not being held in any spaces of the society's mind. But that's only when I'm down in the dumps. When I'm not though??? Like who can do it like me. No one. So I persevere.  Though I think one of the most challenging part of being enby is navigating the dating life. The last time I was dating was when I was a girly pop and it was so easy back then. You just talk to men and it didn't really have multi layers of gender dynamics and social constructs. Like you were just in a hetero relationship. But now, the one thought tha...

Hey playa, I was thinking about what makes me attracted (romantically and platonically) to a person. Like what are the traits that I love for myself and others? And I came up with a list. At the base, we have confident and passionate. If I feel these traits from them, it's an automatic yes. I think these are the most important traits. Every person that I fell in love with head over heels was when I could feel their confidence. There is just an aura that exudes from confident people that I find exhilarating. And that usually coexists with strong passion. Like yes, have a strong sense of what brings you joy and talk your shit.  In the middle, we have funny, flexible, and smart (in any realm). These are like oh hell yeah. Like when you ask for ranch and they give it to you for free when you thought they were going to charge you. I think these traits are like the bare minimum for me to keep you around. It's like the ingredients in a sandwich. Without it, you're just two pieces ...

Hi,  Why yes, it's 2 in the morning and I'm having a cry session because I saw my dog in a place that's only existent in my head. Was that astral projecting? Maybe. It's all white, but it's neither cold nor hot. It feels like nothing but I can feel every lump and hair on my dog. I can feel how she sits on my lap, how she made the perfect cinnamon roll when she's cuddled up with me. I can also feel that you're not in pain anymore. That it's nothing but peace where you are.  There are so many things that has changed in my life because you're not here. I haven't gone on our walk route by myself. I haven't had to look for your hair on my clothes. I have met so many new people that are now in a version of my life without you. I stay out as late as I want to because you won't be home to greet me.  I don't know if I'm going to publish this one. If I do, it'll just sit quietly until someone that's meant to see it, sees it. Loving ...

Humanism by Sumin Lee Everything makes us live, Everything makes us die. We build to live, We build to die. You won't remember I was here, I won't remember you were here. But the earth we stand on, stands for us. The tall building covering the sky, Covering the sun, Covering the moon, I tilt my head up to the floors I can't count. We work to be housed, The roof over my head and four walls around me, I never felt you were of importance. What are we alive for? Everyday, I breathe. Inhale, Exhale. I hope my energy fills the cracks in the concrete, rise a flower from the gray. You might not know I was here, I might not know you were here. But we were and we are. The books, the iced lattes, the traffic lights, Everything is proof that we were and we are. #27

hey hey mic check one two, i rewatched the hunger games catching fire to mocking jay part 2 over the last few days and god let me roll up my sleeve and type. i totally recommend binge watching them and refreshen your memory on how good the hunger games are.  gale is such a bootlicking pussy. up until mocking jay part 2, i wasn't team peeta nor gale because damn katniss is trying her best to stay alive. keep her family alive. she didn't ask for any of this. she woke up one day and chose to save her sister. and in the blink of an eye, she's the face of rebellion. they can both suck my dick. but in mocking jay part 2, gale really took the cake for being a male (negative). he always put his ego and "orders" above katniss and her feelings. talking about "i don't know, all i know is that i was supposed to keep your family safe" bro that's a given. that should literally go without saying. but you failed anyways. katniss sacrificed herself to save prim a...

Heyyy sexy people, I hope you are having a good summer. My summer has been pretty slow, but I am still getting to experience new experiences. It's only my first time at life. Anyways, this Holy Glaze about one of my favorite bands, El Segundo (Daniel) y Los Minutos (Eddie, Francis, Ryan). RAHHHHHH. My favorite part about them is their excellence in musicality, especially in live settings. I even told this to Daniel after a show when I barely knew him. I think that they have a particular sound, but it doesn't become repetitive because they have the range to pull it off. I only mention this because some artists do become repetitive with their unique sounds. And I don't like when that happens lol. Their  Soul Tape session  is so good I watched it twice two days in a row. For my number one song,  Toto Ah Viuh  takes the spot. I love the simplicity of the studio version, it gets straight to the point (even though I have no idea what the song is about because it's in Spani...

Bello! I came up with a series! the Holy Glaze where I talk about things I love. I haven't set the parameters yet, I am 100% going with the flow. I am jotting down the different ideas that I can cover and I think this is so fitting for me. I love having no restrictions to talk about things that I love. Free will maxxing, side quest maxxing type shit. First on my Holy Glaze is The Faye (Aidan, Aram, Francis, Kayla, Ryan). They are a local SoCal indie band, but also my friends. I chose them as the first batter because I know them personally, but I also enjoy their music very much so it felt easier and comfortable to talk about them first. I think my first time seeing them live was January 2024 in Fullerton. And I had seen them live a few more times after that, but I didn't seek out for their music on streaming platforms because in my head, I was like, "band music only sounds good live so I'm not going to bother looking them up." And one day, I decided to give it a s...